gaga yes no maybe so?

I still cannot decide if i really like lady gaga or not.

i like her because she has awesome awesome songs

but then again,she's just too damn weird to like.

it's not wrong to be weird because everyone's weird in some way.

but gaga takes weird to a WHOLEEEEEEEE new level.

but as for now,her ra ra ra a ah is making me crave for rome.

so sexy la bad romance,i dig.

stole this from baby.

watch the real video first then watch this.hahahaha

kay loves bye:)

what makes you happy?

hye,gamba saje je gedik.and it's supposed to be bawah but malas nak gerak kan.

atut takkkkkkkk?

sarah,shark and sara.haha

shark is by far the craziest boy i've ever met.tidak itu bukan rambut betul,dan tidak dia tidak memakai cermin mata hitam dalam shopping mall berjalan kesini kemari(alhamdullilah)

today was the last day for the whole tm bunkface karaoke thing that i've been working on for weeks.fiuh,penat is over sekejap.

soooooo

1.tolong mama bayar 1 saman-100

2.boyfriend happy is saya happy-100

3.bis-100

4.and paling penting,SHOP-selebihnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

yeay yeay yeay yeayyyyy.tapi tak cukup la sebnanya.

because im saving to buy a new phone again,hahahaha boleh tak?

i feel happy.money makes me happy:D:D

oh my linda,oh my.

oh my blog,its been exactly a month since i last posted something up.

hahaha.

i think it's been the busiest time of this year,juggling college,work,family,friends,boyfriend and a wee bit of partying. i am,actually mentally exhausted but i like the thrill of having to do everything and make everything work.so i would say sometimes stress is fun because when i get it all done i hear a little voice in me scream HELL YEAH I DID IT. hahahaha gila.

sooo updates,

i have no car today because my brother took it without asking which is why i'm not out.

planning to go to sabri's do it right campaign at capsquare.

i got myself a blackberry last month,yeay.with my own kerja/simpan and everything else money,yeayerrrrr!

i miss my girlfriends in uk,australia and even right here in pj.i think ckat started her exams first but she's going to finish last. :(

i need/want to shop real badly.but when i went shopping with my baby i didn't buy anything

andd might not spend new year's in kl. :D

k can't think anymore.bye.

leftoutnya rasa dalam rumah sendiri.
:(:(:(:(

i dont have a safe zone in this house.
when i tell you something,i expect you to keep it to yourself.
obviously

oh yes it does.

but im going to wear it today,tomorrow,next month and even next year and it will still start tomorrow.hahahaha

no i am not this kurus,or maybe yes i am actually bigger then this piccha.

listen

an observation in season.

i've just observed something.
i am ofcourse greatful that my friends are home,ilah hayat shareen que haider.haha
happy sangat,but sedih lah that felt so sekejap and my babies aud and whit are leaving real soon:(:(:(

ok not the point,
mengikut observation i,and im just talking in general tak ada kena mengena dengan sapa sapa
well ada lah,sebab kalau takde macam mane i observe kan?

we go crazy when our friends come home from uk/us/australia and mane mane lagi la
kalau boleh nak jumpa hari hari till that person has to leave again.
but,we don't really care to jumpa those yang berada di sini with us jugak dengan alasan,hari hari boleh jumpa.
okay hari hari boleh jumpa,tapi dah setahun tak jumpa and kita akan jumpa bila kawan kita yang dari uk/us/australia/mane mane yang lain tu balik saje.lepas tu,akan cakap bila bila pun boleh jumpa,ill call you when im free.pejam celik,saya dah tak jumpa awak lapan bulan which is when dia dari us/uk/australia/mane mane lain tu akan balik again.padahal,i think it's important to keep those close ones real close before you realise you lost them.

serious ni observation je okay.tak tertakluk kepada sesiapa,because tah i feel like im like that too but i swear im not the only one.but it might just be me salah tafsir observasi ini.

so maybe i should go away,maybe then orang akan pusu pusu nak jumpa i.*pandang bawah sedih*hahahaha just kid.im here for good,hopefully.

at the highest of highs.

higher than any drug that I've ever taken
call it love drunk.
call it love stoned.
I'll just call you Linda


i cannot stand it.
i keep reading your blog.over and over and over again
everytime i baca which goes super well with that song,i smileeeee like crazy.:))))))
it gives me that warm safe feeling, but at the same time i feel them butterflies in my tummy.
it even makes me feel like crying that you baby,are so beautiful.
i think it's the most unexplainable feeling i've ever had.

even if god forbid,and this doesnt go forever,this is definitely love.
i honestly,love you like no other and i've never been loved like this ever .
soooo inlove. :)
thankyou sweets,for absolutely everything.

Mine

omgeeee
14 months today:)
lamanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa but it still feels like it started yesterday


hye sexy boy,you've been awmine for 14 months now.
congratulations baby,you have patience and strength like no other.
i know me,and i think i wouldnt want to be with me.hihi
so thank you,and i love you so-o-o-o-0-0h much.
to more and more months to come,kisses

are you bored like me?

hyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i was this bored today.

i seriously dont take much pictures using my webcam,so i guess boredom really brings out the worst in you.hahahah vain vain vain vain much?sukati la please.so i want to upload alllll the pictures i took with my webcam because im still bored and i blog and caption my pictures when im bored.are you ready for lots and lots of meeee?hihi :)

hye sarah,i dedicate this one for you because i know you LOVE when i make this face.

cubaan muka berak.so maybeeee,i look like this when i poop.now you try,just imagine.kalau nak amik gamba time dalam toilet tengah berak lagi effektif sebnanya,but just more tak senonoh then it already is.haha

yes,i know what i look like.thanks.hahaha i think i like making fun of myself,tapi tak suka orang make fun of me.so stop laughing now,its not that funny kay.:P

if we played twister with lips,we'd look like this.contohnya,lowerlip point to left eye,and upper lip point to bubies.hihi

i think it's true that some people have a good side bad side.i think this is my bad side,so please dont take candid pictures of me from this side.

andd this is my good side,kan kan kan?hahahahahha

i wanted to make a video of me singing like zee avi dowan show face kind but i failed because i dont sound like zee avi.benci,i wanted to be leen-davi.

this is first attempt nak buat mata juling.haha tak juling langsung.

cubaan kedua.conclusion,ditakdirkan tak juling.alhamdullilahhh.

guesss who poses like this ALL the time?*hint idaho hint*

and this one's for my baby. hihi love you.

kay thanks for loving me enough to scroll all the way to the bottom to see me make diferent facial expressions.i am stilllll boreddddddddddd tapi tak ngantok.okay im going to play plants vs zombies,and it's not lame.
shut your trap you little hater,you need your sunshine back where ever you left it.

you're no fun anymore.

i will try.

semalam,

after talking to ckat and a whole lot of thinking,
i decided,i am going to let go of all the hate in me.

honestly,i am the kind of person who will hold grudges and hate for a long long long time until atleast a sorry for what i done wrong,or i realize i am wrong.the thing is,it's too much of a risk to hate so much because anyone can go today,tomorrow or even right now. i dont want to live the rest of my life thinking i should have made it better when i could have.what's the point of shouldve couldve wouldve anyway?because in the end,you still didnt.and plus,im not all that perfect to be hating people so much kan?

so, id like to say sorry to all those people i've hurt.if i ever told you off,it's most probably because i loved you because if i dont i would rather talk behind your back:) and i know that it's obvious when i dislike,so im trully sorry and i really hope i'll actually change this time.

and selamat hari raya everyone,i will mohon ampun personally again because i dont like general mintak ampuns.hihi

my raya day one looked a little like this;

bibir mahal budak ni.and my ayah long.

g,closest cousin in kl.

pupu papat lovingggg

raya hari pertama wajib;
1.tido di rumah mama long
2.kacau sape sape yang tido dulu

i hope it be a goood sebulan beraya for everyone. :D
oh,takde open house.call me when you want to come kay babies?loves.

dear linda

nota peringatan kepada diri;

tolong berhenti membeli kasut leper(flats)
termasuk belian hari ini,anda sudah memiliki 8 pasang kasut leper.

dan tolong juga berhenti membeli selipar,satu level rak di luar rumah penuh selipar-selipar anda.
bila keluar,pakai yang spoinggit beli kat abang tadi jugak.

tolong beli heels yang cantik seperti yang tadi untuk raya
sebenarnya nak beli tadi tapi tiba tiba ckat kate hayat punya kaki is made to wear heels jadi i pon undur diri malu dengan kaki i yang not made to wear heels.hahaha

esok harus/wajib/mati kalau tidak pergi ke segi dan beli buku teks untuk class statistics,dynamic berkumpulan,dan juga class bercakap di khalayak ramai.

tolong beli shirt formal untuk memberi sepatah dua kata untuk 10 minit dalam class bercakap di khalayak ramai.

tolong beli art supplies untuk class seni grafik walaupun anda membenci class itu,anda juga tidak memiliki rm 1200 untuk repeat kelas itu.

tolong sedar diri bahawa anda bukan seorang anak jutawan fakir.

jika penjaga kedai memberitahu anda this one cannot try woook.tolong reply begini; i no need to try wokkk,you see i already know how to wokkk(sambil menunjuk aksi berjalan)

jika ingin berbuka puasa dan diganggu mereka mereka yang tidak berpuasa dan sumpah tak bertimbang rasa,tolong jangan lempang.bulan puasa tidak dibenarkan sama sekali melempang,walaubagaimana pun mengutuk orang tersebut di sebelah beliau dengan suara yang lantang dan confirm dia dengar boleh diterima.(and leave it to sarah.)

tolong sedar bahawa semua orang di kuala lumpur tidak paham isyarat lampu dan akhirnya menyebabkan eksiden belanggo.dan walaupun kesannya tidak degil tetapi hentaman dari kereta yang menyalah tafsir lampu kuning itu akan memberi impak besar kepada penumpang2 kereta terutama sekali mereka yang duduk di bahagian belakang kereta.aduh,sakitnya belakang.

jangan lupa mengucapkan selamat hari raya dan maaf zahir batin kepada mereka yang mungkin akan berada jauh di masa hari raya nanti
SELAMAT HARI RAYA,MAAF ZAHIR BATIN EVERYONE:)

akhir sekali,tolong pastikan(harus,wajib,can die if dont) anda bertemu buah hati anda esok kalau anda tidak mahu meluangkan masa menangis di hari raya nanti.



happy holidays everyone,
itu saja nota peringatan pada hari ini,sekian.

i just realised something while going through someone's facebook pictures.
and im going to need everyone to read this,
Birthday parties/barbeques/surprises/dinners/celebration will never ever go with a farewell party/barbeque/suprise/dinner.

tolong jangan cakap nak cut cost,jadi buat sekali.if you dont have money,dont do both.senang?
i wouldn't want to be the birthday girl at the party where everyone is sad over someone else leaving,and i wouldnt want to be the farewell-ed girl who is ruining a suposed awesome day for most probably one of my closest friend's.and i definitely wouldnt want to be the guest at the birthday/farewell because i would be confused wether to celebrate or cry.

so when you organize another get together either to celebrate or a one last time before you leave,tolonglahhh jangan buat sekali.total confusion

sekian timakasih,
komuniti service message dari,
saya.

i think,you changed
and im not sure if it was for the better.
damn i really miss you,but i miss the old you so much more.

super awesome flash mob.

coolest.

what's your favourite letter?

M,most deffinitely:)
so i was this bored just now.
and i love you sweets

beyonce ze's party.hihi:)

celebrated sarah's birthday last night and we got her a super cute gym bag because she's soooooo into gymbara now.i hopes you suka key beyonce ze host:) sangat fun.HAPPY 20 and 1 day sarah.love long time,you know:)

everybodyyyyyy

sarah,kita harap awak hepi go laki tadi cambut besdei awak.thengz arhz sanggup layan kewenah kitew nak yippee cupee cupee stop pikin on me.hihihi i hope you really had a good one girlfriendd

tengok si patah kaki ni,dah kaki takleh guna nak jalan juga.so become ladis.
tapi mcm seronok kerusi roda ou ni,ada signal ada honk,hahahaha so i think he was enjoying his self.
get well soon apppaaa.so long never drinve me around.haha

k toodles.

malaysia is going crazy.

takee beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrr?!?!wth. i am not the best at my religion and i know i have alot alot of flaws but is this really right?seriously do anyyyy of you think it's right to do this?
bukan berdosa jugak ke sakitkan lembu tu,nak pijak pijak lagi.tak berdosa jugak ke menghina orang lain?tak berdosa jugak ke nak fitnah orang siap panggil syaitan lagi?
i would really like to know siapakahhhh penghuni penghuni shah alam sect 23 ni,nak tanye mempertahankan agama ke korang ni?

woooooooooooooooohoooooooooooo:D:D:D

tak penah rasa bangga dengan diri sendiri macam saat ini
no actually saat i amik result pukul 1140 pagi on a sabtu.
i know,crazy college.but it was worth dragging my ass to college despite how much i really wanted to just sleeeeeeep.
mungkin it was just two subjects,tapi try lah 70 passing mark who wouldnt be proud kannnn

my brother gave me habuan already,hehehe i love you long time
lets make deans list again this sem.way way harder then last sem,but insya allah:D

happy as hell.

sayang,im on my way

semalam pegi rasta ternampak seorang blogger yang famous membaca blog nya sendiri.
kelakar sikit kan?hahahahaha. i rasa dia tak baca blog i jadi im safe.teheheh

berbuka with my brothers and they're girlfs and my boyf which was new but fun,nanti dah dapat gamba i put here oraite.tak penah lagi duduk lepak dengan abang first punya girlf,tapi dia baik so yeay abang!:)

im so bahagiaaaaaaaa esok takde class,and it's official all my classes this semester sangat boring.nak add drop subject mane mane sebenarnya masalah dia i dah banyak sangat tukar subjects,my form is full and they wont give me a new one.and i still belom dapat my results from last sem,slow mo pls.

okay saje je rasa nak update selalu,i will be working untuk my brother starting next week berkerja rahsia/tipu.hehehehe but whatever janji ada gaji yes?
nokia e63 sayang,im almost there,hang tight kay:)

back with pictures;
abang 1,and ash:)


abang 2,and kath:)


and myyyyyyy favourite.
adik and cinta hatinya.hihi:):) i know i look like a patatoe but watever.

damagenya.8 pinggan sate.awesome shitttt

kay goodnight

well it's not that i can't live without you,it just used to be much better when i had you.

bore hore.it would be really annoying if i read this somewhere else soon.

i feel like updating.
i very like this gamba:) tapi ilah benci,dont hate nabilah!

hye ilahee,seeee i love you:)

pictures are unrelated sebnanya.

• im such a bore hore i want to update but i dont have anything interesting to say.

• oh i think this whole mask thing is over rated,no offends and i might be sorry for this statement later.tapi i rasa nak tarik orang punya mask and like breathe in their face like HAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH,got virus onot?

• college is so boring,my subjects this semester sumpah bosan. but kalau drop sekarang pon sem sem berikutnya kena amik jugok.jadi takde beza.

• there was this girl in class yang kate her dislikes are judging people and to be judged because we're not god to be judging.and the next thing she dislikes is orang orang yang hipokerit.by saying she doesnt like hipokerits,isnt that already judging?so i guess she doesnt like herself really.low self esteem much?

• i want ice cream,no i want to eat cold rocks with shareen in australia.and mars bar with ilah and shareen dekat bondai.emdapnyaaaa!
  

• shareen is jealous of my going outs with her boyfriend.im sorry baby but im the closest thing he got to you.hahahahah but she's in deniyal of course.

• i had a conversation with this guy hari tu.laki ni,tahla so into his self and his girlfriend.LIKE SO,like more then i am into m.macam ni,

a: hey how are you and m?rindu gila kat m.
linda: oh we're awesome thanks:)
a:oh i ngn girlfriend i pon okay.im still with the same girl tau.she's the best.dah setahun dah together.
linda would have said if he didnt suddenly go offline:ADA?!ADA AKU TANYE ???

• panjang jugak tulis for someone who didnt know what to write at first.teehee.

oh,audrina is coming homeeeeeeee.yeay!:):):)

hye i'm lauren,

ok not really,not even close.but i loveee her.like like like pls,not in a i changed my orientation way kay thanks:) buruk sikit muka dia dalam ni,but her baju is kreji cool.

i am jahat.

and you ask me why I AM so jahat?
i choose to be jahat so i wont have to deal with all your merepekness.

watch your back selalu:)
bitcholas are everywhere.

i want to keep grebbing my weeny:(

the paper just now wasn't so bad.what was bad was that my academic advisor kept changing the subjects i wanted to take next sem.had to stay like an hour to fix the timetable and everything.but atleast it's all done.omg my blog's so freaking boring.
oh,im officially on holiday till the 21st of august.wooohooooooo?

but shareen's leaving tomorrow.
alaaaaaaaaaaa i already feel like cik lonli:(:(
major sedih. ye la sebulan je,tapi sebulan la aku cik lonli.
gonna miss you beautiful.
uno dos tres PAPA!
and dont forget to greb those teeny weenis okayyyyy.mwah!
love you long time baby

linda,
last paper tomorrow.
boleh tolong berhenti menangguh tak?
YOU DONT HAVE TIME YOU KNOWWWWW.

comelest.hahaha

dari rumah lama

kalau awak kawan,awak akan menerima saya walaupun saya isap rokok,ganja,telan pill,kaki minum,gemok,pendek.you would never judge me
terus terang saya boleh kate,orang yang saya consider kawan boleh kira dgn jari.
saya cukup beterimakasih that i am blessed with that many.
sekarang saya nak awak fikir,betul ke awak ni kawan?

dicubit dari blog lama saya,www.xanga.com/lindadoo if you want to read the rest.
i dont even remember who or why i wrote this, but it actually make sence.

lelaki lelaki annoying.

sebenarnya,

i rasa lelaki yang tak kenal i sangat
tak pernah tegur i selama 3 tahun
takde significance dalam hidup i kecuali berada dalam msn i dan college i

dan tiba tiba tanya i di msn hari ini,linda nak tanye sape perempuan yang ngan you tu tadi?
adalah lelaki yang kurang daya otak.
dalam bahasa singkatnya,bodoh secara general dan secara personal adalah poyo tak ingat.

untuk menambah kekurangan daya otak ini, ada juga dia selitkan bahawa perempuan itu special.
adakah you gila?you nampak dia sekali dan dia special?
speciality dia mungkin dia lawa tapi serious you gila sebab itu bukan satu speciality.
itu daya tarikan bagi pihak pihak yang ada kekurangan daya otak macam you.
kalau dia special pon, sekurang kurangnya kenal lah dia dulu sebelum you nak kasi statement cepumas macam itu.

jadi,lelaki2 lain yang baca entry ini. dan memenuhi kritirea di atas,tolong jangan jadi poyo mcm ni ok.

saya bukan jealous. tanya lah mane mane perempuan,IT IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING.
kalau antara kawan kawan i yang tanye, sebagai contoh farid,wan,habib,dan,daniel,meme,megat,dll itu takpe i takdehal
nak nombo tepon pon boleh

jadi conclusion nya,jangan jadi bodoh ah lelaki2 dalam dunia.
idiots,there's one born every minute.
or maybe you just asked me on the wrong day.well too bad dumb ass

i is at college waiting for m in his class like this. i find this thing hilarious.hahaha brings back old memories,so rindu

mahukan hidung mancung seperti saya? gunakan photobooth.
lihat hidungku..jadi mancung kannnnnn?terima kasih photobooth!

I CAN HEAR CLEARLY NOW MY EARS ARE HUGE.IT'S GONNA BE A LOUD, LOUD,LOUD.SUNSHINING DAY.i shorekan effect ini kepada orang yang mengalami masalah pendengaran sedikit ok.sedikit saje,tak banyak bantu. tapi placebo effect tu penting.

kalau i kodi dah tulis caption canie dah,EMMUAKZZZZZZZZZ TO ALL YANG COMMENTZ,THeNgSsSs~~~!!@!
tapi malangnya i tak kodi,jadi caption tu bukan i tulis tapi angelina jolie yang tulis.(omg so kodi pls shuddup linda pls)

bagi yang faham,originally i ni unik orangnya.pape pon comment k.kalau tanak comment takpe,goyang pieza la sikit dah kate cousin kannnn. or maybe you can just dance like beyonce ze because she's looks like goyang pieza.(total inside joke)

kalau main pee ka boo ngn baby camni mesti dorang gelak guling guling.
random fact moment:sebenarnya babies laugh so much when you play pee ka boo with them especially below the age of 4 months because they think u disapeared and came back in a flash. but after that, the baby is laughing not because the pee ka boo is funny to him/her.but because u make the stupidest faces thinking the baby thinks your pee ka boo is funny.babies are not as dumb as we think they are.

i laughed sampai nangis when we took this picture.LOOK AT HIM TOLONG LAH!he looks like, a..sugar glider.or maybe it's just me.

gigi selepas 10 hari tak gosok gigi/isap rokok

gigi selepas 14 tahun tak gosok gigi/isap rokok.

k bye

looking at me like you didn't do anything wrong,or say anything wrong.
looking at me like it was all my fault.
is rude,is just so fucking rude i can't believe you didn't even say sorry.
but despite the many times you've done this,i still let it go because i love u.
sometimes i wonder if i actually mean as much to you as what you mean to me.


i guess ill let it go again but i think this familiar feeling that i feel all the time really has to go.
i will get tired of this, and that's when i have to let you go.

lindalomeosis

picture above,at his happiest mood trying to imitate someone on youtube who wants to take a ride on a disco stick.

he is,my case study.
mohammad danil roslan.
20 years old.
shows signs of bite marks on arms,tummy,back and face.
is happy most of the time, but moody when lost in battle of l4d/dota or jealous or after a bad dream.
a cranky needy drunk.
an awesome boyfriend.
keeping me happy is his main priority
the first and only person to be infected with lindalomeosis.
living with lindalomeosis for 11 months today and still counting. :)
my one and only

i love you baby.

happy father's day :)

the comelest,happy father's day daddy i love you

no,i do not want to see stupid

please click.
hahahahahahahahaha sick malaysians. k bye

there was this kid that i shall name dedi pein,on the plane when i was on my way back from L.A that was so freaking annoying i could just smack him but i didn't because i am civilized.hihi
so anyway,i came back to malaysia and found the kid in sarah form.

sarah version of budak dedi pein.
masa ni sarah still had her lost funny bone.

during winter time in alaska helping ckat shop for her dedi in newjiland.and this was when sarah lost her funny bone.i think we should go back to alaska during winter time to find it.hihi ok maybe i lost my funny bone too.demit

i should really siap now,girl's night out tonite.boyf dont love me.hahah

entry yang bertumpu kepada perkahwinan.

i miss ini budak budak maksiat.:(

ok ini msg bagi mereka mereka yang jauh ok;please come home.i is missing all my kawan kawan.
i want my nabilah sujak,dalyla soraya,shareen izreen,hayat esham,anddd afique rahman la jugak k sbb m rindu u.haha
start college sudah,mesti la ok lagi.baru masuk 3 class.but the lecturers are nice.tapi next week ada quiz,ntoh lergh nak quiz mende,ada 2 class je lagi before quiz.dengar cite got threee chapters.

anyone wan sam?sweet and goes great with telur.hahahahahahah tapi serious la sedap.
tapi hampa,ane ane favourite saya gatal rupanya.ok sebnanya saya la gatal,saya yang nampak siap amik gamba.hahaaaa

free writing is so kelakar.bye

dear parents

hello,for starters im going to tell you this is going to be a long one.
this is going to be an emo im gonna let it out one.you dont have to read but if you do make it to the end then you really like reading my shiet,or you're too much of a stalker.

for the past week,ive been frustrated over the same thing.
honestly now,tell me you've never been upset with your parents and i hail you.hailo hailo(beyonce ze).hahah alamak terbuat lawak pula.i'm 20 this year,a few days away from my degree.and i have a curfew,honestly i don't mind if it was a reasonable time.i wouldnt mind if i was cinderella be home by 12 or you have no shoes.in my case,my mom calls at 1030 asking me to come home,my dad yells at me army style that it's late and come home as if i was running away or something.i do get away sometimes,1230 tops.but i never hear the end of it.lecture after lecture,of how i dont read the papers or watch the news.how i don't know how a girl was rapped by a taxi driver,how a dude was striped down and they took his car(so gay please perompak).how i don't fear anything and i'm a girl.i do and i know that i am near danger everywhere i go.so this is one for the parents.
i think it's time,that you realise as much as you want me to stay a child,you need to let me grow up.this doesn't just go to my parents but all the other parents,whose kids fill my shoes so perfectly.i understand that you worry,i understand that i am your daughter and it is your job to keep me safe.if i have children i would show them as much love as i feel from you because i know no one else will ever love me as much as you.but it's really hard for me sometimes,to show i can take care of myself when i can't tell you anything because you worry about everything.because you over protect me this much,there is 100 things about me you dont know.everytime i speak up,you dont see the point in it where i am responsible,you seek that little black dot where i put myself in danger.you don't know i have an addiction,you don't know i have a boyfriend that has been by my side for almost a year now,i lie to you about who i see everyday because when i tell you all you can imagine is me in trouble,i wish i could run away so many times and the only thing that keeps me here is that i can't see or hear you cry.i have been in trouble so many times but i fix it so that you don't need to know and worry about me.i have kept so many secrets from you because i know it will only hurt you.i have kept so many things to myself because of the fear that you put in me.because you tell me i can't do this that this that this that,i just stop telling you anything.
because you've tried to protect me so much,you have no idea.no idea that im 20 and i've been through so much.that im 20 and i am frustrated that you dont know me.you don't know what im really capable of,you dont know that i will be ok.and when i tell you i will be ok,it's a promise that i love you and i will makesure that it turns out ok.a part of me hopes you will never read this because again im afraid of what you will say and what other boundaries you will impose on me next.but,there's also this part writing this to you to tell you that you will always be the only parents i will ever want,i will ever love but i am growing up,and you have to let me go.
i honestly wish i could turn back time so i'd have a different relationship with my parents,where i can tell them everything.and i wish we were bestfriends.but i don't think it will ever be like that between me on you.so parents,before its too late i say you pause and think do you really know your kid or is that just the kid you know who keeps you in your comfirt zone.let them live.

biatch.

today,i was the door bitch at mardigras.
like seriously mandy the boss pon panggil saya doorbitch.
first first i was abit like weh im not a bitch pls.
pastu bila semua dah dtg then i realised why u have to be a bitch when you're the one collecting duit at the door.

the cover charge was only 10 ringgit.
10 ringgit JER kottttt
weh,i heard like so many alasans like these;
i taktau ada cover charge
i nak tengok kejap je
i under guest list dj a b dan c
i kawan haniff,wan atau u(saya)
i nak pegi bar sahaja
i dah baya tadi*swooosh hilang in a flash*
and the dumbest of them all,I TAK FAHAM ENGLISH.

and this is why im a bitch to all this people who dont have 10 ringgit,
ha u dah tau,baya lah.
kejap tak kejap kena baya la,sebnanya yang diri luar tu pon kena baya tapi i malas gerak.
guest list bagi dj a b dan c tak wujud.kalau u nak masuk guest list i baya 10 inggit
kawan i haniff wan semua ada 10 ringgit extra nak bayar covercharge.
bar juga termasuk dalam kawasan kena bayar 10 ringgit sahaja.
*cari sampai dapat*abang bob,yang tu tak baya.
and i dont understand malay but i do understand tolong bayar 10 ringgit.

and some guy came running out naked from the bar because he wanted to go skinny dipping.hahahahahaha.

but i had fun:)
i dont mind being the door bitch at all.hahahahaha

cibuk

malas dan penat.
been busy,got back from genting yesterday.probably my first girlfs road trip,plus one awesome boyfriend.hihi had alot of fun though we didnt do much.everything is espensif in genting.i know how to spell expensive dont worry.hahahahah
watched star trek which was pretty ok for something ive never watched before
and today i worked to pay of my hutangs.
working at pahngan on sunday,kot.
come lah okay?wear your bikinis.
10 ringgit cover charge which u will pay to me.hihi

weenie baby

dear ween ween,
im finally getting out of your hair tomorrow.
i can't believe you actually cried because im leaving.
i know its not a big deal tapi ini shareen.kau hardcore kau nangis aku balik:(
i rasa mcm so sweet because u dont cry very much.only for boyfie.
you're gonna make me cry too.
anyhoots,im sorry im leaving so soon and im sure gonna miss you and i love u so so much.
and it was the awesomest holiday i had and mesti the best last day of holiday ive ever had.thank you

i love u weeny. :)

hai at bondai

i am in sydney.
they keep killing me about loosing things in ilah's very not messy room langsung.langsung.
its spotless.haahahahahah she is going to cubit me bila dia baca.
tapi hilang barang pon,im still having fun:D
be back on saturday.

i just realised shareen ni macam mak.she bebels about everything.ahaha k bye
jgn marah k.i love u ilah dan shareen.

ok going to get hai at bondai bish now.

gdey matee.

im going to brisbane on monday.
and shareen is a kreji madafaka,but then again she got it from me.hahahahahahah

please click the picture above for explanation.

can't wait:D hihihihi

unidet stades of amedica-a whole load of pictures.

finally-i finished uploading oldis gegambar dalam masa 1 jam 30 minit.lama en?
jika anda ada soalan ini dalam minda:LINDA HOW WAS US?
sila scroll ke bawah for visual answers.i dont why,kodi doh aku ni skarang,tak tahan.

tak,ini bukan us lagi.ini dari rumah-ish m.hihihi so prity kan?:)

fierceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeenya.hahahahahahahah

ni tengah tengah jalan dekat beverly hills.

bukit bukit sana tuuuu,hollywood.jauh jugak actually dari tempat i duduk like tweni minutes bak kata orang us.

cantik kan sky dia?tatau asal i always feel like the sky is prettyer when im not in malaysia

driver:u know la ink?
i:yes
driver:ya thesdeshoprrrrderrrr.
i:what?
driver:thesdeshoderrrrrrr
i:im sorry what?
driver:shoprrr,thaone we passed oburderrrr.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,sebab tak faham i terlepas kedai dia.dapat amik gamba dari belakang je.driver dia org mexican.slang very tak paham.

star walk streeet thing yg i tak dpt tgk because i didnt have enough time.
ini dari dalam keta,haah tu brad pitt.hihihi tipu jewwwwzzzuh!

outside universal studios.

the sexiest kedai gula gula ive ever seen.alaikkkkk sangat!

seee,sexy.originally makes me horny.haha

shopping in universal studios

perut subway.hihi i knowwwwwwwww

banyakkkk sgt palm trees di california and again that pretty pretty sky.

my mom is so comel kan?:)

i burned 67.50 to masuk sini bukan kgs atau lbs,hihi tapi duit us dollar.but it was awesomeeeeeee.not exactly worth every penny.
but worth my time la because i was going to go hollywood if i didnt go in the studios.

i think im such a child.i basically jumped and scream when i saw this and shrek.hihihihi

thats the whole of hollywood rasanya.we went up there after tapi tak nampak pon hollywood sign besa tu.

i mcm filem star hari tu,dari sini. iaitu set tokio drift.

ini pon

i pegi set kingkong.sebnanya kingkong tu kecik je sebab dorang tak larat/tak mampu nak kasi makan atau membeli gorilla besar camtu kan jadi set dia kecik supaya kingkong nampak besar.tipah tetipu tak selama ni?takpe,i pon tipah dalam hal ini.

ini pulak set citer hantu yang baru nak filem.nantikan kay i di pawagam.i lambai lambai mcm hyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee im so hepi to be here dalam set citer hantu.ahahahaha

ini pula di wysteria lane,which is also the set for nelly's video yang you dont know what you mean to meeee,no matter what i do all i think about is you tu.

anak anak lynette punya treehouse.

ini pulak the grinch punya set.comel kan?rasa nak makan.everything looks like marshmallows.

some famous old movie where the dude carries his dead bribe in to the bonet.and then he kejars us with a knife because 'we know you put your wife in the bonet' tajuk cite tu kot.takut jugak senanya,walaupun again its only tipah tetipu.hehe

this was the coolest set ever,tapi lupa dah dorang kate set ape.

cool sgt lah!can u see the kapal terbang seats?

ini saje je amik,dia ada bob marley ave.takde,i dah teliti daun daun yang anda anda semua minat takde kay disini.sorry

we ate here.kena pakai baju mcm flinstones masuk sini.nolah im pulling a tipah tetipu on you again.gila mak aku nak pakai kan?hahahahahaa

marilyn monroe made entirely out of jelly beans.muka dia fail gila,sekeri.oklah muka i pon fail jugak.that is homer simpson in my hand.

pastu sampai denver:( sejukkkkk gila ah pls

it started snowing when its not supposed to because i think dia echeli baru habis winter.but i was so so so exited.tak penah tgk snow.hihi

because it wasnt supposed to snow,ada lah tulips in the snow.cantik kan?:)

this is california streeet,spent most my time walking this road to the open mall.

that is a 43 feet blue bear peaking in to the convention centre.

i like this picture.the 16th street mall,the only mall i get a free shuttle from my hotel and its an open mall with a free bus ride all along the 1 mile long mall.

this was my breakfast.besa gila kannnnn?hahah ini playground anak anak kecil.

hah,itu saja.penat tak scroll down?but US was nice.but i think i couldnt live in denver,its too bosan.but LA is great,im going to australia next week to see weeenie.can't wait.k till next time,bye