hello,for starters im going to tell you this is going to be a long one.
this is going to be an emo im gonna let it out one.you dont have to read but if you do make it to the end then you really like reading my shiet,or you're too much of a stalker.
for the past week,ive been frustrated over the same thing.
honestly now,tell me you've never been upset with your parents and i hail you.hailo hailo(beyonce ze).hahah alamak terbuat lawak pula.i'm 20 this year,a few days away from my degree.and i have a curfew,honestly i don't mind if it was a reasonable time.i wouldnt mind if i was cinderella be home by 12 or you have no shoes.in my case,my mom calls at 1030 asking me to come home,my dad yells at me army style that it's late and come home as if i was running away or something.i do get away sometimes,1230 tops.but i never hear the end of it.lecture after lecture,of how i dont read the papers or watch the news.how i don't know how a girl was rapped by a taxi driver,how a dude was striped down and they took his car(so gay please perompak).how i don't fear anything and i'm a girl.i do and i know that i am near danger everywhere i go.so this is one for the parents.
i think it's time,that you realise as much as you want me to stay a child,you need to let me grow up.this doesn't just go to my parents but all the other parents,whose kids fill my shoes so perfectly.i understand that you worry,i understand that i am your daughter and it is your job to keep me safe.if i have children i would show them as much love as i feel from you because i know no one else will ever love me as much as you.but it's really hard for me sometimes,to show i can take care of myself when i can't tell you anything because you worry about everything.because you over protect me this much,there is 100 things about me you dont know.everytime i speak up,you dont see the point in it where i am responsible,you seek that little black dot where i put myself in danger.you don't know i have an addiction,you don't know i have a boyfriend that has been by my side for almost a year now,i lie to you about who i see everyday because when i tell you all you can imagine is me in trouble,i wish i could run away so many times and the only thing that keeps me here is that i can't see or hear you cry.i have been in trouble so many times but i fix it so that you don't need to know and worry about me.i have kept so many secrets from you because i know it will only hurt you.i have kept so many things to myself because of the fear that you put in me.because you tell me i can't do this that this that this that,i just stop telling you anything.
because you've tried to protect me so much,you have no idea.no idea that im 20 and i've been through so much.that im 20 and i am frustrated that you dont know me.you don't know what im really capable of,you dont know that i will be ok.and when i tell you i will be ok,it's a promise that i love you and i will makesure that it turns out ok.a part of me hopes you will never read this because again im afraid of what you will say and what other boundaries you will impose on me next.but,there's also this part writing this to you to tell you that you will always be the only parents i will ever want,i will ever love but i am growing up,and you have to let me go.
i honestly wish i could turn back time so i'd have a different relationship with my parents,where i can tell them everything.and i wish we were bestfriends.but i don't think it will ever be like that between me on you.so parents,before its too late i say you pause and think do you really know your kid or is that just the kid you know who keeps you in your comfirt zone.let them live.
this is going to be an emo im gonna let it out one.you dont have to read but if you do make it to the end then you really like reading my shiet,or you're too much of a stalker.
for the past week,ive been frustrated over the same thing.
honestly now,tell me you've never been upset with your parents and i hail you.hailo hailo(beyonce ze).hahah alamak terbuat lawak pula.i'm 20 this year,a few days away from my degree.and i have a curfew,honestly i don't mind if it was a reasonable time.i wouldnt mind if i was cinderella be home by 12 or you have no shoes.in my case,my mom calls at 1030 asking me to come home,my dad yells at me army style that it's late and come home as if i was running away or something.i do get away sometimes,1230 tops.but i never hear the end of it.lecture after lecture,of how i dont read the papers or watch the news.how i don't know how a girl was rapped by a taxi driver,how a dude was striped down and they took his car(so gay please perompak).how i don't fear anything and i'm a girl.i do and i know that i am near danger everywhere i go.so this is one for the parents.
i think it's time,that you realise as much as you want me to stay a child,you need to let me grow up.this doesn't just go to my parents but all the other parents,whose kids fill my shoes so perfectly.i understand that you worry,i understand that i am your daughter and it is your job to keep me safe.if i have children i would show them as much love as i feel from you because i know no one else will ever love me as much as you.but it's really hard for me sometimes,to show i can take care of myself when i can't tell you anything because you worry about everything.because you over protect me this much,there is 100 things about me you dont know.everytime i speak up,you dont see the point in it where i am responsible,you seek that little black dot where i put myself in danger.you don't know i have an addiction,you don't know i have a boyfriend that has been by my side for almost a year now,i lie to you about who i see everyday because when i tell you all you can imagine is me in trouble,i wish i could run away so many times and the only thing that keeps me here is that i can't see or hear you cry.i have been in trouble so many times but i fix it so that you don't need to know and worry about me.i have kept so many secrets from you because i know it will only hurt you.i have kept so many things to myself because of the fear that you put in me.because you tell me i can't do this that this that this that,i just stop telling you anything.
because you've tried to protect me so much,you have no idea.no idea that im 20 and i've been through so much.that im 20 and i am frustrated that you dont know me.you don't know what im really capable of,you dont know that i will be ok.and when i tell you i will be ok,it's a promise that i love you and i will makesure that it turns out ok.a part of me hopes you will never read this because again im afraid of what you will say and what other boundaries you will impose on me next.but,there's also this part writing this to you to tell you that you will always be the only parents i will ever want,i will ever love but i am growing up,and you have to let me go.
i honestly wish i could turn back time so i'd have a different relationship with my parents,where i can tell them everything.and i wish we were bestfriends.but i don't think it will ever be like that between me on you.so parents,before its too late i say you pause and think do you really know your kid or is that just the kid you know who keeps you in your comfirt zone.let them live.
